When people ask how i met you, I'd tell them all the same thing.
& that is , "  I felt you way before i saw you"

Our relationship is god-given, don't you think so?
Those 3 girls standing outside the gents, waiting. Waiting for you.

Everytime i tell myself to give up on you, god would tell me not to.

Your love used to be full of passion, flawless & it came wholeheartedly
until you got bored of me and everything became flawfull and ruined.

Envy. Yeah, i have lots of that. I am indeed envious of almost everyone around me.

Family aside. Its their relationship i am envious of.

I haven't had someone like hers, who buys her anything she desires
I haven't had someone like hers, who's always showering her with mini suprises.
I haven't had someone like hers, someone who treats her like a princess.

But honestly, all i wanted from the start was someone who'll accept me for who i am , someone who'll place me over his friends & pleasure & someone who can promise me happy eternity.

When things just started, i swear i almost drowned in honey sugar concentration but as time passed by, your attitude changed. Arguements showered me everyday instead of love. You find faults with me, you find me irritating, annoying & naggy. You think I THINK TOO MUCH. You joke around when i am serious. You take me like a fool. You make me feel stupid.You make me feel so dumb.

I've done alot on my part, even though i haven't been a very considerate girlfriend. You don't see the point why i don't like you to smoke. I am a girl, who's been brought up without enough love & i've just had enough of seeing love ones leave cuz' of cancer. I wanna have a family with you , a long long healthy one. & yet you NEVER EVER get my point. It doesnt affect me thats what YOU SAY. But it affects me a hell lot.I don't want you to suffer in the hospital next time & regret.

Won't so 'suay' one, i wont get cancer. HOW WOULD YOU KNOW?

I AM TIRED. I AM DOING MY Os IN 89 DAYS OR SO. I KNOW I CAN'T MAKE IT ALREADY, BUT I AM TRYING VERY VERY HARD. MY MOM IS GIVING ME STRESS. YOU ARE GIVING ME HEARTACHES.YOU ARE ALWAYS SUSPECTING ME. WHATT ON EARTH DO YOU WANT ME TO DO???????????????? YOU CAN"T WAIT FOR ME TO DIE ISIT. ALL OF YOU JUST CAN'T WAIT TO SEEEE MY DIE . i am fucking torn up now.

okay. finish ranting.
kxiexiebaiszsz

Shitsxsx. Serene passed on. Fuck.
Hayen's into pubs like mad since yesterday night i heard.
This shouldn't happen if not for that damn fall.

HAYENNNN D;
Don't do this to yourself pleeese. OMGGGG D;

I myself needs to buck up, high fever & splitting headache is causing me to vommit non-stop & i need bloood.
According to Brayen, we're like the 24/7 kinda vampire.LOL
My wrists' blue black D;
&&& the stitch feels gross.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
I miss serene so so much. This year, bad.

I'm trying to convince myself that i don't love him anymore but i can't. Fucking failure karen. Just die la karen, with or without you in his life is NO DIFFERENCEE! ZOMG.
TEEEHEEEE, I AM GOING KRAZEH

I've got ugly bruise on my head.
Fainted on streets.
3 needles poked me
I went into deep sleep.

PainPainKaren
Kthxbaixsx

Pam is god sent i must say. She's amazing i swear.

Life's short & there are people who cannot complete what they want to do and just leave due to certain sickness and all. Yet, the people healthy and strong aren't living life the best. Pam  said that I should do what I want to and do the best I can. ( I don't mean anything negative here, or anything illegal) Life's too short & don't leave things you know you want to do to a later part of life. You'd never know when you'd die. A girl just died from a silent cardiac failure. She had a high fever for only 2 days & she just died in her sleep, gone like that. So silently that no one realised until the very next afternoon.

 I ain't gonna keep my love, I wanna love now for i never know when i'd leave. If i can balance it well with my studies, i'm sure its living my life best already.

Well, everyone have different definition for ' best in life' & mine's simple and short.
" I wanna love you now and forever and not later "

Imma love and do my priorities right. I won't use the phrase " later on " anymore , because i wanna do everything I can now. Loving you is what i wanna do & i don't wanna wait till later on to love you for life's too short to have so many later ons.

Pam also advised me to start on 2 chapters a day and i think i am really gonna listen to her this time. 2 chapters each day for me from now! ;D

I wonder how you can live without me when i can't , but i love you so i need you happy. Free from me makes you happy & that matters all.

 I swear whatever i am saying will make Ju & Jt  feel damn dissappointteeeedddd with me, but i know they'd always be there for me. ILYJU&JT!

The thing about true love is,
nothing & nobody can stop it.
But mine got stopped.
So, it wasn't true love to begin with?
I don't know, mine is true.
Maybe his wasn't.

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He said i always affect him when we quarrell but he never thought of what was the factor that triggered me to start the fight. I've been wrong about so much & now, i know i am a fucking shitass pathetic idiot bitch. FUCKING PATHETIC. SLUT.

Find your princess, i am not fit to be one.

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I thought about it through the movie, that you'd be best without me. One less fugly person to irritate you, to waste your time & to cut you off your possible choices.


KAREN YANG YOU CAN JUST GO SCREW YOURSELF & BANG YOUR HEAD AGAINST A WALL YOU BITCH.WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT I SWEAR. HAHAHA PATHETIC HOPELESS BITCH.

No, it wasn't love at first sight.
It was...
His presence that attracted me.
His presence made me uneasy.
I didn't have to see him, i felt him.
 His laughter fills my soul, and when I hold him, I don't want to let go.
When it comes to him, I can never get enough.